A Coping Mechanism

On occasion, I will have bouts where I can only see myself in the negative, accompanied by a feeling of panic or fear. I also…. stop thinking of myself as Griffith. 

The way I cope with this is by stating my name, basic facts about myself, listing who I am in relation to other people, and listing what good I have caused in the world. I do not bring up my non-humanity or status in the Godhand. 

Example below a cut:

I am a human being named Griffith. I am the Husband of Charlotte, Mentor and Commander of Casca, and Lover of Guts. 
I am the King of Falconia, I am the leader of the Band of the Hawk, ruler of apostles and men.
I was born a commoner to a whore, and rose through the ranks of Midland’s army to the status of royalty. 
Were it not for me, the boy (Caleb) would be dead. Were it not for me, Casca would never have received therapy. Were it not for me, he would not be transitioning. Were it not for me, humanity would have been destroyed.

I am aware some of these are half-truths. I am also aware that were it not for some of my actions, that some things listed as good would not have been necessary. That’s not the point of this. Its just to get me out of a panic attack.